"Strength does not come from physical capacity. It comes from an indomitable will."
Mahatma Gandhi

Wednesday, September 25, 2013


Well, friends, tonight my right knee looks the same as it does in the photo below.  I got bounced out of the surgery this morning!  A bunch of young pups with brand new white coats (it's a teaching hospital) decided the sniffles I have left over from a cold last week were too serious to allow me to go in... To a surgery that doesn't require general anesthesia and which is a merger 1.5-2 hours long. 

Well, I guess they have to learn somewhere somehow.  I hope that today they learned something this morning by watching a 57 year old patient with MS fall apart before their very eyes.  At the very least, I truly hope they have learned to call a social worker when something like this occurs. 

There is an invitation to take another run at this on October 10 and as soon as my headache and fatigue subsides and the swelling in my eyes go down, I shall address that. The surgeon I am with is the cream of the crop and I am lucky to have him invite me to a private party on October 10, which is not a usual surgical day for him.  

I am wicked tired. 

Sunday, September 22, 2013


Here we go!  On Wednesday this scarred and badly beaten knee will be totally replaced. I have squeezed everything I can out of it, so time to get a new one to beat up.  

 It is kind of fun when one of the many healthcare workers involved asks me "how long have you had pain in this knee?" And I answer "since1973" and then I just smile at them. It was in 1973 that the cartilage was removed from my knee after an exhilarating toboggan ride that ended in a bit of a crash. In spite of that, I have had a great 40 years of an active life without that cartilage. Now it has to be replaced, there is no choice.  

I have my game face on and am saying "bring it on" but ya know that this is really going to cramp my style for a bit.  

Monday, September 16, 2013


I hesitated to write this post, but decided to do so with the hope that my story and pictures may inspire someone to do as I have done. 

What I have done is gone from this:
 To This
in four months time.  I owe Anna an apology for allowing my weight to go so far out of control just in time for her college graduation:  Sorry Anna!

Now, 30 pounds lighter, I am no longer embarrassed or ashamed and it's once again safe for the family to point a camera at me.  

We all know that diets do not work.  So, it wasn't a diet that kicked my substantial butt into gear, it was health.  It was a primary care physician telling me that diabetes is a mere 5 years or less away if I continued on the path I was on.  So, with the help of a glucometer and her patient educator, I got a grip.  I am never hungry, I am off nearly all carbs, and I can move around a lot more comfortably.  

We all have different motivators, there's no magic spell or fairy dust to set on ourselves to motivate.  Working with a great primary care physician is a good first step, I think.  

Perhaps I will lose more, time will tell.  But, I am not looking so much at pounds as at blood glucose readings 2 times a day, and they are perfect, without any medications.  

There are some health conditions we can control, diabetes being one of them.  There are many we cannot.  I felt very motivated to be in control of the one I could control.  

Saturday, September 14, 2013


Labor Day weekend was lots of fun at the lake, we had special visits from Paul and from Anna, who came from California with her boyfriend Ryan.  On Sunday afternoon, a few of Anna's friends from Beverly came up to the lake for a visit, it was wonderful to be surrounded by all of this young energy.  

The weather wasn't perfect, but the weekend was. Anna and Ryan wanted a good thunderstorm, as it never rains in Southern California.  Their wish was granted Sunday night with hours of thunderstorms and rain moving across southern New Hampshire.    With the wall of windows facing the lake, and our elevation above the lake, AND the skylights, we often turn off all the lights in the house during a thunderstorm and enjoy the show.  And, that's exactly what was done on that Sunday night.  

There were lobsters and cookouts, swimming and boating, nature watching and lots of laughter. I got Anna and Ryan into my boat and out on the lake to watch one of the pairs of loons with it's chick.  Being from California, Ryan was unfamiliar with the iconic New England Great Northern Loon, and it was fun to introduce him to something so dear to my heart.  

It was a lovely time.  I just wish it could have lasted longer.

Somehow we missed the opportunity for a family photo, which is pretty dumb, as its not often we have the four of us in one place at one time.  But, we did get snippets here and there.  

Anna cruising the lake in my boat.  
By the time we thought of a family photo, Paul had gone home.
I bet there's a magic editing thing we can do to get him in.  
Anna  giving Ryan and Beverly friend Kiersten
a lift from Christine's dock back home to ours.
Paul (with the fabulous hair) was spotted enjoying a  cookout at my sister's camp
with my niece Caryl and her husband Jake.  The cookout was held in honor
of Chris's mother in law's 92d birthday, and it was a marvelous celebration.

Anna and Ryan, who got a real big dose of the East Coast
and our whacky family.  I don't think we scared him off, but
it might have been close.